Well, today marks one month (ONE. yes, you read that right). 29 days, to be exact, before I report to MTC and embark on this unknown journey. And last night was the first time that I truly began to, well, freak out for lack of a better term.
My stomach has officially met butterflies and let me tell you, it’s been a constant commotion in there.
Everything is becoming real and my time of comfort and familiarity is quickly running out. That moment that felt so far away is now close enough to touch and as much as I hate to admit it, I’m terrified. For the first time, unnerving thoughts have crept their way into view.
What if I can’t do this?
Am I strong enough?
How much do I really know?
Is this really the right decision forme?
What do I really have to offer?
Today was a long day as my mind subconsciously played these questions over and over in my head. I felt restless and slightly confused on how I had made it here, why me?
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Don't worry, this fit didn't last long.
Turns out this was just the first of many lessons to prepare me for what’s to come. It only took me two seconds after opening my scriptures earlier tonight before I was quietly, yet firmly, reminded of ‘why me?’
I am ready for what’s to come. I still have a whole lot to learn, but I'm starting off knowing that this is something I can do. And that, my friends, has made all the difference.
I know that I was called to serve a mission for many very specific reasons. Reasons that I may never come to know or understand, but that’s where faith comes in, right? I also know that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me and I have never felt so blessed to take part in something so powerful.
I know that I was called to serve a mission for many very specific reasons. Reasons that I may never come to know or understand, but that’s where faith comes in, right? I also know that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me and I have never felt so blessed to take part in something so powerful.
Love,
Ariel
I know you already received answers in your scripture study, but here's another witness to your questions :)
ReplyDelete1. You can not only "do this", but you are going to rock at it! You are one of the most capable and genuinely driven people I know! And with that constant companion (the Spirit) you and the other sisters are going to do Wonders!
2. You are way stronger than you know, anyone who has been around you knows this. And with each day of study, prayer, service, and testifying you will become even stronger. Not just to carry your burdens, but to help others through theirs, and to further the Lords work.
3. You know what is most important. That the Gospel of Jesus Christ is true, and that you have been called to share it. You know where and how to learn anything that you will need to know, and you will have plenty of support!
4. For this one, I can't say too much. Only you know the confirmations and guidance that God has given you. And although I would Love for you to stick around to spend time together, I can totally see this opportunity building you up to be an even greater person than you already are (and thats hard to do).
5. As for what you have to offer... where does one begin?! All I will say is that you have EVERYTHING to offer! You have the knowledge that others need and are seeking for, and you have your own unique presentation of the gospel message that will resonate with those you serve.
I know you probably wonder why I care so much about your endeavors but I can't help it. I know that you are beginning a life enhancing journey, and you have my support every step of the way! :)