Well, today marks one month (ONE. yes, you read that right). 29 days, to be exact, before I report to MTC and embark on this unknown journey. And last night was the first time that I truly began to, well, freak out for lack of a better term.
My stomach has officially met butterflies and let me tell you, it’s been a constant commotion in there.
Everything is becoming real and my time of comfort and familiarity is quickly running out. That moment that felt so far away is now close enough to touch and as much as I hate to admit it, I’m terrified. For the first time, unnerving thoughts have crept their way into view.
What if I can’t do this?
Am I strong enough?
How much do I really know?
Is this really the right decision forme?
What do I really have to offer?
Today was a long day as my mind subconsciously played these questions over and over in my head. I felt restless and slightly confused on how I had made it here, why me?
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Don't worry, this fit didn't last long.
Turns out this was just the first of many lessons to prepare me for what’s to come. It only took me two seconds after opening my scriptures earlier tonight before I was quietly, yet firmly, reminded of ‘why me?’
I am ready for what’s to come. I still have a whole lot to learn, but I'm starting off knowing that this is something I can do. And that, my friends, has made all the difference.
I know that I was called to serve a mission for many very specific reasons. Reasons that I may never come to know or understand, but that’s where faith comes in, right? I also know that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me and I have never felt so blessed to take part in something so powerful.
I know that I was called to serve a mission for many very specific reasons. Reasons that I may never come to know or understand, but that’s where faith comes in, right? I also know that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me and I have never felt so blessed to take part in something so powerful.
Love,
Ariel
